Thursday, October 24, 2013

To say I love you

I'm struggling a lot with beliefs right now. I have a whole 2 pages of beliefs that get me all messed up already and still shifting through some of it.

I believe that if people don't try and contact me, don't ever say they are thinking about me, don't say they love me, then they don't. I know that's not true, but that's how it feels all the time. That I'm being cast aside.

I'm feeling very, very cast aside right now and melancholy about the reasons why. Maybe this is how the world has to proceed for the future to end up before me. I don't really know.

All I know is that it leaves a very cold, numb feeling in my body.

What will it take to make me feel again?